In April 1989 I made a decision, a decision that has ultimately shaped my life for the past 28 years.
At that time I was extremely unhappy and I knew I need to do something differently. I was 25 years old, married and working as an International Flight Attendant travelling the world; from the outside, everything looked perfect. To cut a very long story short, I made the decision to work on myself.
My mother had died when I was 12 years old, she was just 47. By the time I was 25 I had spent 13 years trying unsuccessfully to bury my grief any way I could. I knew it was time to fix me.
On and off over a period of 15 years I saw a Psychotherapist who at the time was one of New Zealand's most was skilled and experienced Attachment Therapists and bit by bit I worked through the pain I had buried. It was at times an incredibly painful process, and at times, I didn't want to carry on. But, I kept going, and slowly I began to make sense of what had happened to me, and to deal with the feelings I had about it. Looking back, going into therapy was the best thing I could have done, and I'd do it again tomorrow.
After that period of time passed, slowly I began to rebuild my life; this time with very different results.
Over the last few years there have been a few other things niggling away at me that I've been wanting to work through, so recently I've engaged in Counselling through the online service, BetterHelp.com.
BetterHelp.com is an absolutely brilliant online service. After completing an online questionnaire you are allocated a Counsellor. You then have the option of 30 minute sessions (via phone or video), and you have access to your Counsellor via an online messaging portal whenever you need or want to.
I've been working with my Counsellor for a little over three weeks now and have managed to work through some issues which have made a huge difference to how I see things, and how I manage certain situations. I highly recommend this service, so please do check it out.
At times life can feel like an uphill battle, but with expert help, it can be a whole lot easier.
I have no idea why, but since I was in my teens, I have said... I'm going to live to be 100 and be fit and healthy. Who knows, maybe I will, may I won't.
Regardless, centenarians have always inspired me. I love reading articles about them, listening to them speak or watching YouTube videos about them. I love listening to their experiences and to their wisdom and advice.
This video is no different.
Listen as these 100+ year olds talk about their lives.
Over the last week I have been winding down for the year after my last painting workshop for 2016. This has been a massive year building my creative business, Upcycled & Co. and I have loved every minute.
Taking the time to relax is really doing wonders for me. Yesterday I even set myself up on our deck on the lounger with magazines, my laptop, phone and a cold drink to relax in the summer warmth. I really cannot rememer the last time I did this - it has been years! I read articles in magazines (something I've not done for so, so long) and just connected with the feeling of being relaxed. And, it was wonderful.
In kicking back from my business I've found I have been drawn to one of my old interests, photography. I'm really loving reconnecting with this creative pasttime. I have been inspired by watch a series of videos from Makelight in which Emily Quinton gives tips and ideas about how to create beautiful Instagram images.
So photography is yet another way in which I connect with my inner feelings about how it's great to be alive. By appreciating the beauty in my surroundings every single day, I feel such great joy and gratitude for this life that I have been given.
Now it's your turn... What really inspires you to connect with the feeling that it's great to be alive? I'd love to know, so leave a comment below.
The questions I'm asking myself are:
Those are the questions I'm asking myself regularly these days.
Being more and more aware of my own mortality as I age, the limited time I have is in my consciousness far more than it used to be. This means I can make choices based on what is most meaningful to me. This, I think, is a good thing.
Question: What do you want to be doing more of?
Enjoy spending time doing what you love the most!
I'll start where I am today, purely because it feels right to do so.
Today I needed to nurture myself.
For the last couple of months I have been working extremely hard in my new business in order to release new products, increase sales and get traction in my local market. And, I'm delighted to say I'm making great progress.
Working so hard however does take its toll. Right now my body needs rest, my soul needs to be, and mind needs to be free.
This blog is something I've wanted to start for quite a few years. But with working as a Copywriter for the last three years I didn't really have the inclination to write for pleasure, writing was my work. Now, having moved on from that business into a new one, I'm ready to write.
So, today I have let myself meander. I chatted on the phone with a friend for about an hour, I have created this blog, and have done little else. No deadlines. No work.
Today I have allowed my mind to have the freedom it needed. I have fed my soul with my self-expression through this blog post. I have given my body physical rest. This is what I needed today.
What do you do when your body, mind and soul needs rest? Share your answers in the comments below, I'd love to hear them.
Until next time...